Well, after finding out my scan results - finally....Charlie and I were so excited! When Dr. May first gave me the paperwork on Monday and it was all the same as the October reading...I was a little depressed...but after being home an hour the clinical nurse called me to tell me they were the original results from the October scan and they still hadn't received the 'new' scan results. What a relief that was...but I was still waiting - patiently - to find the results!
Waiting is not a great patience that I have. I think, like others, you tend to feel that things aren't good -- the longer you wait the more you 'think'.
It's a terrible thought that when things don't go your way you tend to wonder about prayer...but this surely does change my thoughts!!!!
As far as my symptoms....I still have the numbness/tingling in my fingertips and feet. But the worst is the finger cuts...they are so deep and painful! I put hand cream on them and the liquid band aid (but that tends to peel off) so I am always putting it on. I think I am going to try to wear plastic gloves all day - I was my hands so often...maybe this will help. It is all due to the chemo and not the cold weather...the rest of my hands aren't chapped.
My hair loss....it's just on the right side of my head...not visible noticeable to anyone but myself when I curl it. Not much hair on the ends...so I don't think it's falling out by the root...I think it may just be breaking off - midway.
I have to go for my nupagin shots - 2 - on Saturday and Monday. Even though my WBC numbers were within the normal range...Dr. May feels that after treatment the numbers go down and she likes them being where they are.
Not sure if I said this in one of my last blogs...when I went for my 1st nupagin shot last treatment - the woman gave me the shot in a completely different location on my arm. When I went back on Monday I asked 'my regular' nurse if that was the right place. She said that she may have put it in my muscle rather than the fatty part of the arm...meaning that if it was in the wrong place the shot wouldn't have worked. Well, my numbers were okay, so I guess she did it right. She scared me when she began asking me what this shot was for and a few other questions....I wanted to walk out of the office when she was asking me those questions!!!!
We are having Charlie's family here on Sunday for our Christmas dinner. We haven't see them (other than Michael, Emilia and Mikey) for a long while. We're looking forward to seeing everyone again and with this CT scan results - I am very happy and excited of this holiday season! Christmas Day my sister Patty will come by with her mother in law - weather permitting. It's so hard to get my Mom out of the house...she gets so stressed - her back really bothers her and with the weather changing all the time - it doesn't help. As it is, she has to go to the hospital next Wednesday to have her pacemaker checked and then the following week she has to go to the cardiologist - he doesn't make housecalls - and she hasn't seen him since last January. Not sure how I will be feeling - this pump that has the 5 Fu meds in it tends to give me diarrhea at any given time...so Samantha and probably Charlie will take her. Charlie had taken her last year but stayed in the waiting room. Not thinking that whatever was said to my Mom...she couldn't remember. So Samantha will definitely go in with her this time!
Charlie has been keeping himself busy with going to the township meetings, working out schedules for the basketball program, going to the fire station to clean the kitchen and some other stuff....he loves being busy!!!
I decorated the tree...our artificial...I did it all in one day. I put up each row of branches and added the lights as I went...then when it was up and lighted...I watch my soaps for two hours then put all the ornaments (Charlie thinks we have 1,000) on. I am so anal that I have to decorate it myself...everyone runs when they know its time to put the tree up! I let Charlie put three ornaments on and I told him where to put them...he too, ran after that! Now comes the wrapping of the gifts! I don't like to wrap because I don't do a good job! I have the table set up in the upstairs loft with all the bags ready to go! I even bought the boxes that have pictures on them so I don't have to wrap the boxes...it's just getting started!!!! I am so happy that Charlie hasn't said anything to me about getting this cleaned up...but with company coming on Sunday and running back and forth to Sparta and cuts and preparing sauce in the meantime is scaring me...but I know it will get done.
Just in case I don't blog for a while...we do wish all of you a very Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
Thanks again for all your support, prayers and positive thoughts and wishes!!!!
